This page will dedicated to the
Loving Memory of
Josh Petrazzuolo Brubaker
August 23, 1985 - May 3, 2003
anything that you would like to contribute to this page
can be sent to:
Thoughts from his Family, Friends and Teammates
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Tragedy
Sat May 3 2003 8:57:24 pm
To the Members of the Hibernian Bulls and Banshees:
I regret to inform you that Friday night we lost a close family member. Friday
evening we lost Josh Brubaker. He will be truly missed. Not only as a great
teammate and player, but as a great person and brother. Please keep him in your
thoughts and prayers as we all will.
Regretfully yours,
J.J. Terlecki
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Jon Logan
Josh
Sun May 4 2003 5:14:01 pm
To the Brubaker family and everyone on the Hibernian team. I was deeply saddened
when I learned about what had happened. At this time i cannot understand why but
what I do know is that Josh is some place beautiful now. If anyone needs to talk
don’t hesitate! 215-428-0464
Sincerely,
Jon Logan
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Evan
My condolences
Sun May 4 2003 12:32:00 am
When I heard the news I was completely shocked. Since I've joined the team I've
really gotten to know a lot of people really well and have made many good
friends. I feel like we're a family. I'm sorry to hear that one member of this
family is gone. I send my condolences to Josh's family and friends. Please let
me know about the funeral.
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Ryan Terlecki
Josh Brubaker
Sat May 3 2003 11:36:52 pm
Dear All:
On Friday night the world lost a terrific person in Josh Brubaker. I, for one,
was completely devastated after hearing the terrible news. Josh was one of those
kids who always put you in a good mood and a smile on your face. On the field,
he always gave his best. Although I had only known Josh from rugby, he was a
great kid. I, as well as our whole club will miss Josh and will always keep him
in our hearts and thoughts. I send out my condolences to his friends and
especially his parents and the rest of the Brubaker family. If anyone needs
someone to talk to or anything, please do not hesitate to get in touch with me.
Cell - 2152064025 House - 2159463587
Ryan Terlecki
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Dan Nau
Re: Tragedy
Sat May 3 2003 10:15:48 pm
I wish that I could do something, anything to better the situation. To an and
all involved and hurt by this tragedy, if there is anything that I can do or say
that can help you, do not hesitate to call on me. Cell 267 980 1326 home 215 736
2773.
mourning with you all,
Dan
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Lauren
Banshees!!
Sat May 3 2003 9:03:36 pm
-GURLS-
today as we all know will be a good match!! n probably one of the toughest games
of the season if not the toughest!! not only because of those beastly gurls...
but because we have lost one of the "family"!! i know the game will b tough..
but u all know the brubaker would want us 2 go out there and kick some Media
ass... n win it not only for him but for ourselves!! so try n get some rest.. we
got a rough day ahead!! Lets do it for JOSH!!
--lauren—
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KiM
Re: Banshees!!
Sat May 3 2003 11:06:05 pm
Hey gang.......................ummm....... please pray for the Brubaker family
and Friends. Please keep them in your thoughts and prayers. It is really hard
not to cry! ! Ummm, I would love it if all of you guys/girls came to the service
for Josh. I will let you all know when it is and what time. I think the Brubaker
family would love it if you all came! If you need to talk....Call me up..(215)
295-0927
kim
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Rory
Please keep me informed
Sun May 4 2003 12:10:39 am
When I was first informed about our current tragedy all I could say was "JJ,
please don’t mess around with me." I say that because I just couldn’t believe
such a great person would take their own life. He was always fun to be around,
and always had something interesting or funny to say. I am very fortunate to
have known him for all this time and I consider him as a brother, to sweat and
bleed with him beside me on the field was a privilege. Please keep me informed
about anything that is going to happen in his memory, and I will be damned if I
miss his service, and I wish you all would not either.
-Rory
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Aubrie
The "Baker"
Sun May 4 2003 1:27:24 am
I got the news tonite. The phone rang and i answered it. "He's gone" the voice
on the other line said . Speechless. What could I say. All i could do was deny
the fact Josh is gone. I've known a few kids who have gone this year, but they
weren't the same. They weren't my teammates or friends. Josh was. Its so hard to
believe. As usual he was at practice on time Thursday; ready to play though his
team's season was over. He brought with him his casual, laid-back attitude and
perpetual smile. Josh always had a smile when he played rugby. Everyone always
noticed when he played because he was an amazing runner. One of the fastest.
After practice Josh and Kim needed a ride to church. Although my car was in a
state of disrepair and I feared it could cease working at any given moment, I
took them. I'm glad I did. What normally would have taken 20 minutes, took the 3
of us and hour due to a stopped train. I'll never forget that day. We laughed
and joked about how stuck we were and how awful my car was. Brubaker was a funny
guy. When we arrived at their church, what sticks in my mind most is how Josh
specifically asked me to stay and go to youth group with Kim and he. I refused,
saying I'd go next week. And i meant that. I was looking forward to going with
them next week. I'll always regret that i didn’t go then. Now he's gone as much
as I would like to believe he isn't. We won’t ever know exactly why he made his
fateful decision. All we can do is pray and hope that Josh Brubaker is kicking
around a "heaven" brand rugby ball and looking down on us with classic smile.
Bulls and Banshees, we are a team and always will be. Whether this is your first
or last year or somewhere in between , we should all support and love one
another. I f anyone ever has any kind of problem please talk to someone. Life is
never adverse enough to end your life. It has its good times and bad times, and
though sometimes you have to work harder, situations will get better. Hope never
fades even if you think it has. I'm praying for Josh and his family and my team.
Together we'll get through this.
Sincerely,
Aubrie Jean Goodnoe-215-945-6646
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Coach Murph
Josh.
Sun May 4 2003 7:50:36 am
Let me say from all of us how sorry we are to hear this news about our Josh. WE
all have questions as to "why" and we may never know "why". One thing that we
must remember is that we are all loved by our families, our friends and our
teammates. When you are in a spot that you just don't know what to do, seek out
someone and talk about it. Talk about it a lot. We will take care of each other
because we are a family. We will listen to each other because we all have a
great connection. We will mourn the loss of our brother, son, friend together
because we are a family. Our hearts go out to the Brubaker family and his
friends. I am going to miss you a lot "young man". I just know that Josh is
playing Rugby on God's side.
Coach Murph.
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J.J.
Brother Bru
Sun May 4 2003 6:07:53 pm
On Friday night, I had the misfortune of telling 90% of the Bulls that we had
lost our brother and teammate. Josh Brubaker was one of my closer friends on the
team this year. He was a great kid that everyone cared for. Myself, along with
some of the team knew about how excited he was for the things that were coming
his way. He had a try-out for an MLS team and he was already "with" a college
and he was just a junior. Josh seemed so excited about life in general. We will
all miss his ever smiling face and they way he could cheer anyone up. He was a
great teammate, player, and brother. We may never know what he was thinking or
what may have made him make this decision, but we can all pray for him and keep
him in our thoughts. My condolences go out to the Brubaker family, Reilly
family, all of Josh's friends and teammates, and to the rest of the Hibernian
Bulls and Banshees squads. Josh, you will be in all of our thoughts and prayers.
You will be missed my brother.
J.J. Terlecki
cell-215-206-9003
house-215-946-3587
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Coach Castner
Josh
Sun May 4 2003 6:21:50 pm
I am sorry that I haven't got back to all of you sooner about Josh. I still know
very little about the details of this tragedy and will probably never will. This
is not an easy for any of us to come to grips with since we all in some way
shared a common interest and way of life through rugby.
Rugby, as a game has brought us together a little closer than any other sport
could. Week after week this spring we had worked hard at practices to be able to
compete as a team. The battles that we faced together on the field of play
sealed these bonds of friendship. When I learned about Josh, I felt many
emotions; shock, anger, a deep sadness and a huge sense of personal lose. I’m
sure that many of you felt many of the same things as I did along with a few
other things.
As a coach, I will miss him very much for I saw him as a big part of the future
of the Club for next season. I was counting on him to be a leader on next year’s
squad, this would have been his third year with the Hibos. To the coaching staff
he was someone we could always count on in a tough situation to come through
with a clutch tackle or quick move to advance the ball. He had his brake out
performance this year at the Ultimate Rugby Tournament scoring several tries and
Man of the Match Honors in our first game there. I believe that his best was yet
come to the rugby field and we were all looking forward to being a part of it.
I have seen on the message board that a lot of you are communicating about Josh
and what he meant to you. Please continue to do this and add the entire staff to
the list of people you may want to call if you feel the need. If anyone has any
of the details about the services for Josh, please call me ASAP so I can get the
word out.
I will, in the near future, be creating a memorial page on the website for Josh.
I will be collecting all of the comments posted on the board and add any
personal messages you might want to include. If anyone has a photo(s) of Josh
that you would like to share it will also help.
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bill barber
Josh
Sun May 4 2003 8:49:33 pm
My name is bill barber, I am a youth worker at Crossing Community Church. Mrs.
Reilly made me aware of your website this morning at church and I since have
been checking the postings here on the board about Josh. As with all of you, we
are saddened by the loss of our friend and brother Josh. He will be deeply
missed by all of us here at Crossing, but we take comfort in knowing that Josh
is now home with his Savior Jesus Christ. Even as I sit here typing this, I am
at a loss of words. To Scott, Karen, Rachel, Liz, & Sarah...you know I love you
all and will be lifting you up in prayer, you all mean so much to me.
To everyone who inquired about services for Josh, there will be a memorial at
Crossing Community Church. It will take place Wednesday night at 7pm. The church
office phone number is 215-968-0276 if you have any questions.
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Dan Nau
in the wake of tragedy
Sun May 4 2003 9:37:30 pm
Its Sunday, a little under 24 hours sense I first received word of this
senseless tragedy. Last nite I spent with some close friends and teammates. We
banded together most cried, some tried held their composures) by laughing at
the great memories we shared as team. I went home laid my head down and beat
myself up mentally, over thinking it all like I always do. I still want to help
as much as possible but the sad truth is there isn’t much for me to do but keep
Josh and his family in my prayers and try not to let something so senseless go
to waste. I’m still trying to come up with ways to not let this tragedy be a
complete waste. I feel like I’m rambling on and I apologize but I needed to vent
and I have a tough time doing it face to face with someone else.
again if there is anyone who wants to talk my door and phone line is always
open. take care all,
Dan
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Kim Piscadlo
About Josh's Memorial Service.
Sun May 4 2003 9:38:38 pm
Hello to all,
Just to let you all know about the Memorial service for Josh, will be Wed. night
at 7:30, At Crossing Community Church. (The directions are below.) If you guys
would like to meet somewhere, we can meet at the Neshaminy Middle School, across
form the hospital. If that is ok. Come around there by 6:50, so we all can go
together. Then we can leave. Let me know, if you want to do that then I will be
there early. I will be in the lead car and make it easier for you, so you don’t
have to look at the directions. Call me or leave a message on the website. Or if
you have any questions.(215) 295-0927. Thank you.
-Directions-
From I-95: take exit 49(the Newtown-Yardley exit) Turn onto Rt.332 west and
proceed about 1 mile. Continue traveling through the light at
Lockheed-Martin/Holy Family College. Turn left at the next light, onto Lower
Silver Lake Road, and travel one block to the entrance on the left.
From Rt. 413: take Rt332 East(the Newtown Bypass). Continue traveling through
two traffic lights after passing the Summit Square Shopping center. At the next
light( one light past the Newtown Athletic & Aquatic Club), turn right onto
lower Silver Lake Road, and travel one black to the entrance on the left.
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Coach Castner
Josh's Memorial Service
Mon May 5 2003 9:33:47 am
12.47.224.12
To All Banshees & Bulls:
As most of you are aware by now the service for Josh Brubaker will be Wednesday
Night at the Crossing Community Church in Newtown, PA. The services will start
around 7:30 PM. As Kim Piscadlo has suggested, I would like as many of you that
can make it, to meet first at the Neshaminy Middle School on Route 413 across
from St. Mary's Hospital. I will be in the parking school lot around 6:45 PM and
I will have printed directions to the church. I believe that getting together
before hand will be helpful for all, since there is strength in unity. Please do
your best to be there on time. If there is anyone who cannot make it to the
service please keep Josh in your thoughts and prayers.
The club will be sending flowers to the church, since there has been no specific
request by the family for donations to be made in lieu of flowers.
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Dan Costello
Josh
Mon May 5 2003 9:59:56 am
12.47.224.12
hey
I started before and i didn't know what to say and now i still don't but i just
wanted to let go of some things. to all of the hibos i'm sorry for the loss of
our family member, to the brubaker family for the loss of their son and brother,
to josh because he was loved by all of us and i just wanted to let him know that
i was thinkin of him lookin down on me, just don't watch while i'm in the
shower! but on a more serious note i would like to stress to everyone that no
matter how much you might blame yourself it is not your fault, and we should
remember the happy times and not the tragic end.
any one who needs someone to talk to should call someone, everyone has phone
list and everyone should have someone to talk to. my number:267-767-1025
Dan
p.s. josh don't forget to get it in for the hobos in heaven HIBOS
HO!!!!
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Ian
Josh
Mon May 5 2003 1:15:35 pm
155.247.229.6
It is Monday 5/5, I have been thinking a lot about the tragic loss of Josh for a
few days since I first heard. Josh was one of the nicest guys I have ever met,
and would go out of his way on a lot of things. One of the most talented youths
in this nation in soccer and a very talented kid on the rugby pitch. I am still
trying to find answers to why this happened, but the only one who knows truly is
Josh. To see such a talent be lost over something so trivial is beyond my
comprehension and understanding. Everyone needs to have someone to talk to,
because there is always someone who will listen! Everyone has problems and
strifes, but they go away! No problem is ever to difficult to solve, you can not
ever think you are alone because there is always someone looking for someone
else to talk to about anything! Josh was too nice and so young to even think
there was nothing else left to do. This is a very sad time, and Josh is in a
very great place, but it was not his time to go, he was not supposed to be there
yet! This is never an answer to life’s problems, but I know Josh is being taken
care of, and that he will never be scared and alone again. I MISS YOU JOSH, KEEP
AN EYE OUT FOR THOSE WHO TRIED TO KEEP AN EYE OUT FOR YOU! I Love you, and where
ever I go I will never forget how much you meant to me, this club and your
family on the pitch.
Ian Conklin
P.S. I WILL BE AT THE SERVICE, ANYONE NEEDS A RIDE CALL ME!
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J.J.
Tuesday
Mon May 5 2003 2:43:24 pm
68.81.204.248
Hey Coach, a bunch of the guys and i think that it would be great if we could
wear our jersey's on wed. during the day, so if we could, i would like to get
together tuesday at Poplar and get the jerseys. i also think it would be great
if we could give the brubakers josh's #10 jersey. I hope we can get this done,
for Josh and everyone who feels the empty void that this wonderful person has
left. If anyone needs to talk, my door is always open and I’m here to listen,
don’t hesitate to call or just stop by.
J.J.
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Lauren
Josh
Mon May 5 2003 10:21:11 pm
honestly coach josh wanted 2 a flanker that was his "dream" so i think we should
give him either 7 or 6 so he can have that at least!!
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Megan Reilly
Email your thoughts for all to see
Tue May 6 2003 9:38:54 pm
Hey guys. Brian and I are going to be putting a poster together which means you
need to mail me your thoughts..good thoughts. These will be placed on a poster.
I need a group pic and anything with Josh in it. I'm not sure if they'll be room
to have it placed for everyone to see Wednesday night, but definitely Thursday
night. Thursday night will be a special time where all of you can come and
actually say something or whatever is on your mind. Thursday from 7-9pm is
dedicated only for high school people to come. I got all the stuff that has been
posted.
I know its last minute, but just drop me an Email at: nagemmegan79@Hotmail.com
Call me during the day: 215.860.4250 x122
or try cell: 215.803.7764
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Brubaker Family
Thanks
Thu May 8 2003 8:44:27 pm
To Josh's Teammates,
We want you all to know how much you meant to him. Being on this team was a very
positive thing in his life. We, grandparents, aunts/uncles, and cousins want to
do something in his memory. Is there something we can do to help support your
team, such as a scholarship for a needy player, a donation for equipment,
patches on the jerseys, etc. Please let us know how we can honor Josh's life by
supporting something he truly loved!. Thanks for your positive comments about
Josh at the service and on this page.
Richard and Ellie Brubaker (the proud grandparents
Aunts Nancy, Sue, & Lisa
Uncle Pete and cousins
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Lauren
Josh
Wed May 7 2003 9:31:45 am
-message board readers-
as I'm sure you've all seen, I’m probably on the message board almost everyday!!
but i still haven't said to much about josh! it's not because I’m not upset
about the situation, i just don’t know how to react! me n josh had a lot in
common! we both thought a lot alike... n to me it was scary to know that someone
who had so much in common w\me, took his own life! its been really hard for me,
as I’m sure it is for all of you, to accept the fact that he's gone, but each
day seems to get better, but only by the slightest bit! i don’t think i will
ever be able 2 get over his death, just because he meant that much to me, as all
the hibernians do! you guys have truly become my family, and it is very hard for
me to lose a family member. the night i found out a few of us went to murphias
to express our pain, but the night ended in expressing memories of josh, and
telling jokes to ease the pain. i fear that i will never b able 2 really show
how upset that i am, but i do miss you josh! n i want u 2 know that u were a
great person, son, brother, friend, and mentor to all of us, and we will go on
each day remembering you. josh we love n miss you, and i hope your doin me proud
playin flanker up there with the angels. josh we love you!
--lauren--
ps- josh you better not be wearing those navy blue socks, or that council rock
gear, ur not playing for council rock ne more!!
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J.J.
Josh's Memorial
Wed May 7 2003 10:50:26 pm
To all who attended Josh's memorial:
Tonight was a night that tried our love for Josh. We all felt the tears of
sorrow that were expressed by everyone who attended. My heart goes out to all
those who felt the immense pain that I know I felt. Josh was our brother, and
part of our Hibernian family. Remember him as he was, a great player, friend,
teammate, and brother. To Brian Reilly, your speech about Josh was great and
truly heart-felt. I'm sorry for your massive loss.
In loving memory of Josh Brubaker (August 23, 1985 - May 3, 2003)
-J.J.
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Lauren
Last Nights Memorial
Thu May 8 2003 9:13:17 am
Last night as I looked at the faces of the people there, some of them were
crying, or had tear stained faces, but others I saw joy in their eyes. And I
don’t know about ne1 else, but that service really tried my emotions. First I
was numb, and then sorrowful, and at one point angry. We all heard what was
said, but I'm glad that some of the hibos stood up n spoke their peace so Josh
could know that some one out there really did care about him, and that we are
actually hurt that he is gone, and that we wish he was here w\us instead of
being up there. n I would also like to tell JJ and Bryan that it took a lot of
guts for you guys to stand in front of all those people and tell how josh
related to you, and i think that josh really appreciated it! so i hope that all
of u guys keep josh in your minds, and i will c u @ murphs party, or @ school,
or w\e!!
--lauren—
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keith
quick comment
Thu May 8 2003 12:56:01 pm
hey hibos
just wanted to thank all of you who came out to josh's service last night. I am
sure it meant a lot to not only josh but also to the rest of his family. I
haven’t really talked much to josh since I left home but I know that rugby was
all that kid had before he left us and he will be truly missed. Its awesome to
see ya'll come together during a time like this.
anyways good season this year and good luck to the seniors leaving this year.
I’m in the pack at SHIP so I hope to play against some of you guys in college.
lowerclassmen-keep getting guys out to play-its more fun when you can field an A
and B side.
-ill see yall around
keith
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"Josh Brubaker was not just my teammate, he was my brother, part of my family. I will miss him very much. Josh could always bring a smile to your face whenever you were feeling low. Josh was the kind of guy you were proud to say you knew. I feel great sorrow for the rest of his close family and friends. To the Brubakers, I'm sorry for your loss. Josh was a good person and I know he is looking down on us from above. He is in a better place. To the Reilly and Piscadlo families, I know Josh was very close to you, and I'm sorry for your loss. To the Hibernian Bulls and Banshees, we must remember Josh. Josh was a great person, player, teammate, friend, and brother. I will mourn his passing, but rejoice in the good memories I have of him, as must all of you. Always keep Josh in your thoughts and prayers, I know I will. Josh, you will be missed my brother." - J.J. Terlecki
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Karen and Scott Brubaker
To coach Castner
Fri May 30 2003 11:17:28 pm
Hi Coach, it's Josh's parents. We are thankful for you and every one of Josh's
brothers on the Hibos. With all the torment in Josh's life the past two years,
rugby was the place of joy and pleasure for him. He loved being with you guys,
loved being part of the team. He'd been on other teams before, people bonded
together by a common goal, hard work, and commitment. Being on the Hibos was his
favorite team ever. I think being a Hibo was more important to him than anything
else at this time in his life. The harder physically it was, the more Josh liked
it. I think all Josh ever really wanted to be was one of the guys. He planned
for his rides to practice far ahead of time because he didn't want to miss a
minute of it! The Thursday before he died I went to pick him up at Poplar Field.
I parked and watched as he was playing a fun pickup game with the girls and
guys, laughing, and very relaxed. He came to the car and said he wanted to play
longer and had a ride to church from there, so I left him. He was so happy. I'm
so glad he had those good times.
We miss him terribly and are suffering grievously at his loss. He is
irreplaceable. The only thought that keeps us going is the absolute conviction
we have that we will see him again someday. It will be at a time and place where
he is perfect, just as he was made to be. And when we see him again, it will be
for all eternity, as there are no goodbyes in Heaven. As someone said recently,
"Josh is having the time of his life." And we believe it. While I, Josh's Dad do
not wish to offend anyone, I do want you to know that our faith that Josh is in
Heaven is possible because of Josh's faith in Jesus. Josh believed that Jesus'
death was in full payment for his sins. That's all it takes. Josh would want you
to believe that too. Pls feel free to email (ScottBru647@aol.com) or call if
you'd like to talk, no religious nonsense, just God wanting to love on you like
no one else can.
We wish for all the team and coaches all the best on the field of glory and in
life. We're proud to be Hibos!
We appreciate the invite to the dinner but we're still emotionally very fragile
and seeing so many people that Josh loved would be very painful.
Love, Scott and Karen Brubaker